New Songs

My Lover and My Friend- Cris Kerr

Come into this room

My Lover and My Friend

Come into my world

My Lover and My Friend

Cuz I just wanna be with You

There’s nothing else I’d rather do

I just wanna be where You are

Cuz I just wanna be with You

There’s nowhere else I’d rather be

I just wanna be where You are

Tell me what’s in Your heart

My Lover and My Friend

Show me secrets of Your love

My Lover and My Friend

Take me close to where You are

My Lover and My Friend

Take me into Your strong arms

My Lover and My Friend

Come light up my night

My Lover and My Friend

Search deep within my heart

My Lover and My Friend

Bring Your Truth, Your Love, Your Light

My Lover and My Friend

To my deepest, darkest parts

My Lover and My Friend

For You are my portion

My rescue and hope

You are my Healer

My Lover and Friend

Only in You- Cris Kerr

Chorus: Only in You

I find rest

Like a ship in the night

Longs to find its way home

Lord come to my rescue

My soul longs to find You

Like a wave crashing down

My heart turns inside me

Please come to my rescue

My soul longs to find You

And at last I come home

Safely in Your arms

You’ve come to my rescue

My soul has found rest in You

Cuz you are my Healer

My Rescue and Hope

You are my Portion

My comfort and rest

Higher- Quel Kerr Borin

Higher! Higher!

Take me higher

Where I can soar above my life

Take me deeper

Where I can know the way you love

Higher! Higher!

Higher, take me!

I wanna know how high

I really wanna know how wide

I wanna know how long

How deep is Your love for me

Higher! Higher!

Higher, take me!

You’ve said Your thoughts are not my thoughts

You’ve said Your thoughts are higher

His Banner- Cris Kerr & Shaila Kerr

Chorus: In the midst of my pain I will sing

His banner over me is love

My heart is hurting

I feel it hollow

Can't stop this feeling

Of no tomorrow

I need to run

Away and far

Get it all out

From deep inside

I will walk through this

Process every thought

Until they lose their steam

And I'm no longer caught

The very thing that broke me

Makes me well

The very thing that hurt me

Heals me well

His banner over me is love

The pain inside will stop

His banner over me is love

Bloom- Cris Kerr & Heather Ridnour

Chorus: And I bloom for You, oh my Lord

I bloom for You, my God!

I thought I was empty and broken

But You filled me up with you love

Like a vase cracked and damaged

But that was just the outlet

To release all the beauty inside

Brokenness opened the flowers

Each bloom holds worlds within

Cracks are the freedom I walk in

And I bloom for You, oh my Lord

I bloom for you, my God!

You have restored my soul

Back to the place I belong

You have restored all the things

I thought were lost

And I bloom for You, oh my Lord

I bloom for you, my God!

Enough...! From Mayer to the Peridot.

Ok, that was enough of John Mayer! Thanks for listening and I still hope and pray he chooses to step into his royal calling and identity as an amazing worship leader with the chance to raise up a generation of worshipers all over the globe. John Clayton Mayer- you are a SON of the most High God and He loves you so, so much He gave His Son to die in your place so you could live FOREVER! He wants to see you free from panic attacks, and completely free to sing, dance, compose, love and enjoy life and freedom to the max. So, hurry up and meet Him cuz He's crazy about you! :o)

Now, back to my freedom adventure...

I've been learning a lot about myself lately. Spending time alone can do that to you... Beware! haha. No, but really I am struggling through it but trying really hard to practice the simple art of taking care of Cris. Its a real roller coaster ride to love Cris :o)

So, in the midst of it last week I found a great article that I totally related to and feel like it has a lot to say about me, so here it is:

August Birthstone : Peridot

Birthstone Color: Yellow Green

If fire appears to leap from the vibrant green surface of the Peridot, this may be because this gem is formed as a result of volcanic activity. Many years ago, natives discovered Peridot crystals in the black sands of Hawaii, explaining their presence as tears shed by Pele, the volcano goddess. Throughout history, August's birthstone has been used as a means to connect with nature. Early Egyptian priests drank a stimulating beverage called Soma from cups made of Peridot, believing this practice to draw them closer to Isis, the goddess of nature.

The name Peridot comes from the Arabic word "faridat," meaning gem. Ancient Egyptians called them the "gem of the sun," because of their dazzling brilliance when seen in the desert sun. It was believed that the Peridot glowed with light even as darkness fell, which is why miners were said to have scouted for these gems during the night, marking their location, and returning in the light of day to retrieve them. Perhaps this legendary mining method is the reason that the Peridot is sometimes called "evening emerald."

Peridot is a mineral named Olivine, which is found in a variety of greens, ranging from light yellowish green to a dark olive. Early mining for this gem was done on Saint John's Island near Egypt around 1500 BC. The green crystal was considered protective against evil and when set in gold, especially helpful against night terrors. It was ground to powder and used as a remedy for asthma and as a cure for thirst brought on by fever. Today, Peridot is mined in Burma, Norway, Brazil, Australia, Hawaii, the Congo, and in Arizona.

The force of nature is alive within a Peridot, making a gift of this gemstone symbolic of vitality. It signifies strength, both individual and within a relationship, as well as the promise of new growth in years ahead.

Alternate August Birthstone
An alternate birthstone for August, Sardonyx is a type of translucent or opaque quartz with alternating parallel bands of brownish red and white. This stone was worn as a talisman by the Egyptians to protect against infections and evil. Today it is highly polished and carved into beautiful beads and cameos. Sardonyx is mined in India, Germany, Czechoslovakia, Brazil and Uruguay. A gift of this stone is considered symbolic of happiness within a relationship.

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Victoria - John Mayer

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDeA0MxNXCo

Don't know why
Tori came by
But I could see
By the look in her eyes
Tori'd been driving around the town for a while
Playing with the thought of leaving
Don't know why
Tori just smiled
Mentioned something
Bout how you arrived
Must have been hard to see through the tears she was hiding

She said I might not be seeing him soon
Got a few things I've been waiting to do
Hey, Tori came by
Tori came by tonight
Hey, Tori came by
She says to say goodbye

Looked outside
At the car in the drive
And the suitcase
On the backseat inside
Sure its so she can't look out behind at the road

She said I might not be seeing him soon
Got a few things I've been waiting to do
Hey, Tori came by
Tori came by tonight
Hey, Tori came by
She says to say goodbye

Don't look down
She seemed alright
You might be asking
Where is Tori tonight
Somewhere out on the highway I'm sure she's fine...

Not Myself- John Mayer

this one is not very popular, but its such a good song. I think it really speaks of times when we do not feel like ourselves in our own skin, and then being in a relationship while you feel that way makes you wonder if the person you are with can stick through it even though you know that you are not acting like yourself. Kinda deep, but such a real issue to think about...

Suppose I said
I am on my best behavior
And there are times
I lose my worried mind

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

Suppose I said
Colors change for no good reason
And words will go
From poetry to prose

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?

And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you

Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?

Would you want me when I'm not myself?

Wait it out while I am someone else?

Friends, Lovers Or Nothing - John Mayer

Aw... this song kills me!

Now that we are over
As the loving kind
We'll be dreaming ways
To keep the good alive

Only when we want is not
A compromise
I'll be pouring tears
Into your drying eyes

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be an in-between
So give it up

You whisper "Come on over"
Cause you're two drinks in
But in the morning I will say
Good-bye again

Think we'll never fall into
The jealous game
The streets will flood
With blood of those who felt the same

Friends, lovers, or nothing
There can only be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
We'll never be an in-between
So give it up

Friends, lovers, or nothing
We can really only ever be one
Friends, lovers, or nothing
Don't you know
We'll never be the in-between
So give it up

We'll never the in-between
So give it up

Anything other than 'yes' is 'no'
Anything other than 'stay' is 'go'
Anything less than 'I love you' is lying... (fade out)

Love Song For No One - John Mayer

I think this was the first JM song I ever heard and definitely made such an strong impression on my heart that it made me want more. But this one has a real special place because its so sincere and vulnerable... I absolutely love it.

Love Song For No One Lyrics


Staying home alone on a Friday

Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

Neon- John Mayer

today I chose this song cuz I think it speaks from a Hosea heart and I just love it:

When sky blue gets dark enough 

To see the colors of the city lights

A trail of ruby red and diamond white

Hits her like a sunrise  

She comes and goes and comes and goes 

Like no one can  

Tonight she's out to lose herself

And find a high on Peachtree Street 

From mixed drinks to techno beats it's always 

Heavy into everything  

She comes and goes and comes and goes 

Like no one can

She comes and goes and no one knows 

She's slipping through my hands  

She's always buzzing just like 

Neon, neon Neon, neon

Who knows how long, how long, how long 

She can go before she burns away, away  

I can't be her angel now 

You know it's not my place to hold her down

And it's hard for me to take a stand 

When I would take her anyway

 I can  She comes and she goes

Like no one can 

She comes and she goes 

She's slipping through my hands 

She's always buzzing just like  

Neon, neon Neon, neon

But who knows how long, how long, how long 

She can go before she burns away 

She comes and she goes

Like no one can 

She comes and she goes 

She's slipping through my hands 

She's always buzzing just like  

Neon, neon Neon, neon 

But who knows how long, how long, how long 

She can go before she burns away

No Such Thing- John Mayer

"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
That something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies

They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something's better
On the other side

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above

I am invincible (x3)
As long as I'm alive

I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above

I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for

All we ever do is say goodbye- John Mayer

Another one of my favs from his new album... good song for a Friday :o)

Just when I had you off my head
Your voice comes thrashing wildly through my quiet bed
You say you wanna try again
But I've tried everything but giving in

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

I bought a ticket on a plane
And by the time it landed you had gone again

I love you more than songs can say
But I can't keep running after yesterday

Why you wanna break my heart again
Why am I gonna let you try

When all we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

We say goodbye
We say goodbye
We say goodbye

All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye
All we ever do is say goodbye

All we ever do is say goodbye
(to fade..)

War Of My Life - John Mayer

My fav from his newest album, Battle Studies.

Come out Angels
Come out Ghosts
Come out Darkness
Bring everyone you know

I'm not running
I'm not scared
I am waiting and well prepared

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of Time and there's no where to run away

I've got a hammer
And a heart of glass
I got to know right now
Which walls to smash

I got a pocket
Got no pills
If fear hasn't killed me yet
Than nothing will

All the suffering
And all the pain
Never left a name
Ohhh...

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's nowhere to run

I'm in the war of my life
At the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

No more suffering
No more pain
Never again

I'm in the war of my life
At the door of my life
Out of time and there's no where to run

I'm in the war of my life
I'm at the core of my life
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

So Fight on (I wont give up), fight on everyone, so fight on
Got no choice but to fight 'til it's done

City Love- John Mayer

So, this morning I couldn't think of a song and asked a friend... here's what I got. (I know I can't add it to my top 3, but this one def makes it to the top 5!!!!)

I never liked this apple much
it always seemed too big to touch
I can't remember how I found
My way before she came around

I tell everyone
I smile just because
I got a city love
I found it in Lydia
and I can't remember life before her name

she keeps a toothbrush at my place
as if I had the extra space
she steals my clothes to wear to work
I know her hairs are on my shirts

I tell everyone
I smile just because
I got a city love
I found it in Lydia
and I can't remember life before

the day she called up and came to me
covered in rain
dinnertime shadowing
and as the clothes spun
we spooned and I knew I was through
when I said, "I love you"

Friday evening we've been drinking
2 AM I swear I might propose
but we close the tab
split a cab
and call each other up when we get home
falling asleep
to the sound of sirens

I got a city love
I found it in Lydia
from the battery to the gallery
its the kind of thing you only see
in scented glossy magazines
and I can't remember life before her name

Stop This Train - John Mayer

Ok, seriously... this is my ultimate favorite John Mayer song!

No I'm not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but...
I just can't sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly won't someone stop this train

Don't know how else to say it, don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't but honestly won't someone stop this train

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you'll renegotiate
Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
Don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train

See once in a while when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
'til you cry when you're driving away in the dark.

Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can't take this speed it's moving in
I know I can't
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

Comfortable- John Mayer

I know I said top 3... but this one cannot be left out of my top 3! :P

... and it doesn't need an intro, it speaks for itself...

I just remembered that time at the market
snuck up behind me and jumped on my shopping cart
and rolled down aisle five
you looked behind you to smile back at me
crashed into a rack full of magazines
they asked us if we could leave

I can't remember what went wrong last September
though I'm sure you'd remind me if you had to

our love was comfortable and so broken in

I sleep with this new girl I'm still getting used to
my friends all approve,
say "she's gonna be good for you"
they throw me high fives
she says the Bible is all that she reads
and prefers that I not use profanity
your mouth was so dirty

life of the party and she swears that she's artsy
but you could distinguish Miles from Coltrane

our love was comfortable and so broken in
she's perfect
so flawless
or so they say

she thinks I can't see the smile that she's faking
and poses for pictures that aren't being taken
I loved you
grey sweatpants
no makeup
so perfect

our love was comfortable and so broken in
she's perfect
so flawless
I'm not impressed
I want you back

Daughters- John Mayer

This one definitely has to be in my top 3... I remember showing this song to my dad at a time in my life where we weren't very close, and the fact that he liked it so much and could identify to it made us connect in a real special way at a real special time... Just sooooooo good!

"Daughters"

I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too

Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world

So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too [x3]

In Repair- John Mayer

This is probably my very favorite... In a live show he said: "this is a song about being screwed up but coming out of it! When you're a kid and you get a tennis ball in the nuts, its one of the worst feelings in the world, but all men will tell you there's no better feeling than when it stops hurting" lol

In Repair lyrics

Too many shadows in my room
Too many hours in this midnight
Too many corners in my mind
So much to do to set my heart right
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

Stood on the corner for a while
To wait for the wind to blow down on me
Hoping it takes with it my old ways
And brings some brand new look upon me
Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unsteady
I am in repair, i am in repair

And now i'm walking in a park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

Oh it's taking so long i could be wrong, i could be ready
Oh but if i take my heart's advice
I should assume it's still unready
Oh i'm never really ready, i'm never really ready
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there
I'm in repair, i'm not together but i'm getting there

ITS ALL ABOUT JOHN MAYER TIL MARCH 25th!!!

I'm really excited to go to my first John Mayer concert in less than 2 weeks!!! So, until then I will be sharing a bit of my fav songs... I'll try to post one every day. So, here we go:

"The Heart Of Life" is def in my top 3. I have a sweet live recording of it and in it John explains a little of how this song was born, and he says:

"I had the melody come up when I was thinking about death in the natural, like when somebody dies a natural death, like a slow fade out-- literally they are like a leaf in water... its kind of beautiful. Its like a leaf curling up, like in nature where its just the kind of thing that loses its life and turns in. It was beautiful, and compelling and strange. I remember when that happened I felt like I couldn't even blink for a long time, and I wondered if at the end of the game do you go like "ya, I'm glad I did that, that was actually kinda fun!" or at the end of the game do you go like "you know what? I just remember being cold a lot..." idk... like what do you take with you...?

And then maybe, or more likely, it just completely balances out. They give you a pad and a pen and say something like- go figure it out. And you come back and you're like "I can't... every time I come up with one for the left column, I come up with one for the right column..." And so this idea of I know the heart of life is good came when I was sitting around for a while and I was lucky enough to have my hands on the guitar ... and its called "The Heart Of Life"...

"The Heart Of Life"

I hate to see you cry
Lying there in that position
There's things you need to hear
So turn off your tears
And listen

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

You know, it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
Then, circle of your friends
Will defend the silver lining

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
No it won't all go the way it should
But I know the heart of life is good

Pain throws your heart to the ground
Love turns the whole thing around
Fear is a friend who's misunderstood
But I know the heart of life is good
I know it's good

Good Word

SMALL STRAWS IN A SOFT WIND by Marsha Burns -- March 11, 2010:

You have turned a corner, and will now be led in a direction that will be a departure spiritually and perhaps naturally from where you have been in the recent past. This is a path that will lead to greater wisdom, insight, and maturity. Many of the problems that you experienced in the past few years will suddenly vanish, almost without a trace. That is not to say that the next season will be trouble-free, but for the most part it is a time when you can enjoy the journey, says the Lord.

Psalms 84:5 Blessed is the man whose strength is in You, Whose heart is set on pilgrimage.

Lyrics to Sequence #3 by: Cool Hand Luke

I never truly lived until I died with You
I never truly lived until I died with You

You came and changed my life
You came to save my life
You turned Your ear and You heard me (Psalm 116:1,2)
Why can’t I feel what I believe?

Veni sancte Spirtus
Veni sancte Spirtus (Come Holy Spirit)

You came and changed my life
You came and saved my life
What can I sing to give you my heart
To give up the things that tear us apart

Who am I that You died for me
Touched my lips and let me sing
Simple words for simple truth
I never lived till I died with You
I almost forgot

You’re my one,
You’re my one good thing (Psalm 16:2)
You’re my reason,
My reason to sing
I never really lived until I died with You

BLACK MONDAY by: christa black

well, it looks like rain, so they say
but i don't care if blue turns grey
cause i decided it's gonna be a beautiful day

my umbrella broke, i'm getting soaked
so i might as well lay back and float
cause i decided it's gonna be a beautiful day

and though i can't change the weather, i can change whether or not
i'm gonna smile

CHORUS:
black monday you can't get me down
no no no
black monday turn yourself around
whoa, whoa, whoa
stop, cause i won't let you win
you won't defeat my week again
cause i'm convinced
that black monday
you won't get me down this time

looks like my car won't start
i'm late for work
oops, i just spilled coffee on my shirt
but i decided it's gonna be a beautiful day

and when the traffic is stuck i'll turn the radio up
and just enjoy the ride
and though i can't change the forecast i predict
today's my day to shine

Elevation - U2

High, higher than the sun
You shoot me from a gun
I need you to elevate me here
At the corner of your lips
As the orbit of your hips
Eclipse
You elevate my soul

I've got no self control
Been living like a mole now
Going down, excavation
I and I in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high
Elevation

A star
Lit up like a cigar
Strung out like a guitar
Maybe you can educate my mind

Explain all these controls
Can't sing but I've got soul
The goal is elevation

A mole
Digging in a hole
Digging up my soul now
Going down, excavation

I and I in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high
Elevation

Love
Lift me up from out of these blues
Won't you tell me something true
I believe in you

A mole
Digging in a hole
Digging up my soul now
Going down, excavation

High and high in the sky
You make me feel like I can fly
So high
Elevation

Elevation
Elevation
Elevation

Elevaaation

Only in You- Cris Kerr

Only in You

Only in You

Only in You

I find rest

Like a ship in the night

Longs to find its way home

Lord come to my rescue

My soul longs to find You

Like a wave crashing down

My heart turns inside me

Please come to my rescue

My soul longs to find You

And at last I come home

Safely in Your arms

You’ve come to my rescue

My soul has found rest in You

Cuz you are my Healer

My Rescue and Hope

You are my Portion

My comfort and rest